Let Me Love You

This had never happened before in the two years that Dyna had known him. His rugged handsome looks had always enticed her. But it was a casual infatuation, just like the other fifty odd men and women who charmed her mind. It was only recently that the two had had started communicating with each other on a regular basis. That was the inception of the warm feeling emanating from her heart.

Over the course of time, Dyna had convinced herself to ignore such baseless romantic feelings. For a girl like her, falling in love was very easy; the path that followed, not as much. Love scared her, so she usually chose to tactfully avoid it. This time too, as soon as she realized that she was falling for him, she forced herself into believing that he was way beyond her league. It worked for a while, but then came the turning point. It was late at night while Dyna glued her eyes to the screen of her desktop waiting for his next email. He wanted to share some of his self composed songs with her and Dyna watched with bated breath as his voice slowly downloaded into her machine, and oh the bliss when it began playing!

Her breath felt heavier and she could feel her heart pounding on her chest as his voice from the headphone whispered into her ears. A warm unknown excitement gripped her. This has never happened before. All her restrictions had failed! A sudden pang of jealousy streaked through her when she realized that she wanted to be the object of his affection, she wanted to be his muse, she wanted to be at least a small part of his thought which was so beautiful that it had captivated her through a simple tune, rhythm and voice. She listened to him over and over again and felt a strange connection with him, but did he? Probably not. History was repeating itself; once again she was stealing glances at him.  Once again she was reaching for the non achievable only to be greeted with disappointment and pain.

She didn't know if she had the courage. A crowd of “What if?” encompassed her as she remained undecided about what to do and what not to do. She did enjoy his company and intellect but that didn't mean he felt the same way. Was the desperation worth it? There was a lot to gain and even more to lose. Remaining undecided only felt like the right thing to do at the moment.